you

I hate it
I hate it when I'm fed up of him,and I can't delete from my life..
WHO THE FUCK CREATED THIS WORLD
I want to die so badly right now
I don't care about my birthday,about my family,
I just want him
I just want to die..
I dont know,this is just an online chat how can i suffer so much?
I'm dumb
I'm over sensitive
I'm dumb
I'mdumb
I cant stop repiting it.I cant stop typing it
I can't
My stomach is so closed
it hurts
my throat hurts
my hands hurt
my eyes hurt
do you think im over acting?
I'm not,im really crying...
Why love means pain? Why cant I have a 2 hour love like in the movies
maybe 2 hours and a half
of passion
of love
please..

Where fears and lies.Faid awaaaa-a-a-a-ay

When the light is bigger,the bigger will the shadow be.


When I'm on,he's never on now..Maybe I should stay 24 wide away infront of the screen.Maybe he doesn't even want to talk to me anymore.Yesterday I have a great time with S.B aka,B.B.We dressed up on cam as stupid people (or atleast me,he was with his super cricket stuff and me with mickey mouse gloves and stupid stuffed animals that made weird noise) he's being a great source of support with me,even though at times,it's like talking to a wall.With A.C it's pretty much the same,our conversations are so serious now a days,next conversation I'll make it fun!

I honestly don't know what to say right now,I'm always able to write a huge paragraph about everything or anything but I have nothing left.. 
Each time I see this picture,I hate it even more. 
Oh well
I was very bored..


Song of the day: Sakura Hitaru ( Ithink it's like thatt???) - Simple and clean,Sanctuary